What was it…..is it… ?
Are you wonderer? When it doesn’t work out with a guy and I find out he’s with someone new, I find myself wondering what it is that is making it work with “her” instead of me.
Is it her hair? Does she smell nicer? Does she boost his ego and tell him his butt is cute?
What does she do different that I didn’t do? What does she have that I don’t? Are her lips fuller? Is she blonde? more tan? Is she fluent in three languages? Does she want to settle down and have his babies or is she restless …like me?
Is it the sex? Is that all? Does he get butterflies when he’s around her? Does he ever get wrapped up in the folds of my memory? Does he ever miss me?
Perhaps it’s our masochistic nature that compels to compare ourselves to others… even if they don’t quite exist in our world. It’s the past… I should be over it…especially if it was my decision, right? Yes. Lay it …her… him… all thoughts to rest.

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