STI’s on hold today!
I don’t know how to date!
Seriously … I talked previously about my dating history and so you can see that I’m not exactly an expert in this. I’m kinda sorta seeing a guy, we’ll call him Pen, and I have no idea what I’m doing. I don’t know whether I’m supposed to call him just to talk, or whether I’m supposed to wait for him to call me. I don’t know whether I should send him emails randomly or wait for him to contact me. I don’t want to be “that” girl … the one who comes on overly strong … because I do like him … but I don’t know what I’m supposed to do! LOL This makes me laugh, and it made my therapist laugh, too. Scuba Steve asked me; “well what do you want to do?” and that only confused me more. I have no idea what I want to do.
Pen and I have been spending one evening during the week together, and then most often one evening (and sometimes night together over the weekends, and that’s just great for me. I still have my own space, keep my own life, and don’t feel bad having a life outside of someone else. (This was a huge struggle for me during my marriage.) However, we haven’t talked about “us,” but I don’t know that it’s even relevant to our dating. Seriously. I feel retarded. I am dating-retarded and don’t know what to do about it.
I don’t think that anyone is reading this blog yet so asking what do you suggest I do/read/think about probably won’t do me much good, but I asked it anyway!
dating, confusion, relationships, personal
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