Special delivery
My heart broke a little tonight. Last week, I spoke to my ex of two years. We’ve been broken up for a little over two years as well. Despite a tumultuous breakup, we’ve moved past it and are now amicable. I adore him. The problem was that I was not able to commit to him and didn’t see myself with him for the rest of my life. He thought… or “knew” I guess… that he was going to marry me.
Last Sunday when we spoke, I thought we’d reached a pivotal point. He was the one to end the conversation first this time and since I didn’t have much to talk about—because I was tired of making him listen to me complain or basically say the same thing over and over every time he talked to me—I barely talked at all. I figured he was finally over it. Over me.
Then tonight I checked the mail. There was a package. From JC. He’d been to a concert of one of his favorite artists recently and got me a signed album. Enclosed was this note:
Hey Sandy,
When Mieka’s new CD went on pre-order, I couldn’t resist the opportunity to get you a copy. We can’t have you going without the complete set, now can we? You know, that first CD of hers- the one with ten songs – is long out-of-print, so you have one of the few copies in existence. She finanaced the recording process of this new CD completely independently, with only her own cash and proceeds from the preorders, so everyone who received a pre-order appears in the thank-you notes behind the CD. It’s got a couple great new tracks and reworkings of some old ones. I hope you enjoy.
Also, since you seemed a bit down when I last talked to you, I just wanted to remind you that I know everything is going to turn out great for you. I meet a good deal of interesting people, and the more people I meet, the more special I realize you are. I think about you often, and miss you greatly, so I really hope I’ll have the chance to see you if you make it home this winter.
Your biggest fan,
JC
I opened the CD case…underneath the CD are all the thank-you’s. Low and behold. There are both of our names. On the inside of her CD. I’m a little bit speechless. Wow.
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