Sometimes things get rocky…
Tonight I was listening to a friend who was talking about her current relationship with her boyfriend. They have been together for about four and a half months.
She expressed concern because he has a tendency to get frustrated with his mother, who he lives with and takes care of because his dad passed away. She talked about how he gets upset with his mom because she has a tendency to be late all the time and how she isn’t very financially stable and will sometimes make impulse buying decisions.
Apparently, unbeknownst to him, she has these same habits and is afraid to just be honest with him about it for fear of rejection.
It’s hard to really be your true, whole self with someone you are just starting to care about. The early stages are so rocky—make one false move and it’s still easy for one to run away unscathed. There’s that fear that showing them your true self and becoming vulnerable will backfire and you’ll get hurt. I know I’m guilty of this.
Heck, men can’t even get me to the exclusive four month pivotal point because I either make them jump through so many hoops in an attempt to prove to myself that they’re not right for me, or I tell myself lies and make up fake dramas surrounding them and our relationship, become disappointed and deliberately pull away.
I don’t really do it with intention to harm them or act maliciously, but I just kind of make myself disappear until they force me to crack and open up just a little more for them. I’m a wreck. But aren’t we all?
Just a little?
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