first loves III
He would guilt trip me about the music I listened to, saying it was all in “vain.� He would make up rules that were convenient for him. For example, no cussing was allowed, but gradually choice words would make their way into his vocabulary, or “no touching below the waist� until he felt “deprived� and thought he was missing out. He would use God as a tool of manipulation and put on a “holier than thou� front. He even tried to tell me that according to his bible we were already “practically married� because we were committed to each other. To this day, I’m pretty sure this was just his futile attempt to get me into bed. Don’t think so buddy.
Have you ever been in a relationship with a control freak? Or someone who is manipulative? Everything is turned around so that you end up feeling guilty or foolish or naive for behaving in a certain way. It’s a strange phenomenon… I wonder if dating possessive people is indicative of being a masochist or just someone who likes to “change” people. Maybe it’s an ego thing, as Wayne Dyer suggests, since people can really only make a choice to change themselves…
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