Dating Outlook

I surprised myself this weekend.

I haven’t hung out with G since the night at his parent’s mansion and he kissed me out of nowhere. So fine. Whatever. Except that he insists on emailing me during the work week several times a day and asks if I’d be interested in hanging out with him and his friends who are coming to visit the following weekend. By the way, he thinks it’s time to see me drunk so he’ll recruit another to drive and we’ll just have a grand old time… okay..? He asks this on Monday and continues in shared dialogue with me throughout the rest of the week so I can analyze and dwell for five, six, seven days! Instead of just oh, two or something more reasonable… and Yadda yadda yadda…weekend comes, don’t hear a peep out of him. GAH!

And I tell myself, Sandy, sweetie. Sit down. He’s just not that into you. Say it with me. Honey, he’s…okay, he’s just…HE’s JUST NOT THAT INTO YOU. Read the book. Or listen to the audio…it’s good.

And I know this. What’s funny is that I’m not all that into him either. Which is why I’m surprised. So, did I underestimate my feelings for him? Do I like him more than I think?

What’s worse is that I was helping a friend move all weekend. I was legitimately and quite genuinely busy most of the weekend. And when I was done I was tired–and am still sore actually.

Sure I could’ve sort of made time for him. But what’s sick is that I think I just wanted him to call because I wanted to be missed or something and honestly, part of me wanted to turn him down for hanging out and who knows, maybe I even wanted him to beg me a little. What can I say?

I know that’s terrible. What I typed right there, yes. I know. But I think it’s the truth. I really just missed the attention, that’s all. Sigh. I know that’s lame. Maybe even a little pathetic. But I know we all get to that point sometimes. And it sucks for a bit.

It’s times like these when I miss being a relationship person—I’m kind of an all or nothing girl I’m beginning to realize—and I’ll often wonder if leaving my ex-boyfriend was the right decision. I know it was for the time, but I can’t help but wonder what would be different if our paths crossed again.

By the way, he wants to see me in two weeks…did I tell you that? Dun dun dun.

Tonight I was listening to a friend who was talking about her current relationship with her boyfriend. They have been together for about four and a half months.

She expressed concern because he has a tendency to get frustrated with his mother, who he lives with and takes care of because his dad passed away. She talked about how he gets upset with his mom because she has a tendency to be late all the time and how she isn’t very financially stable and will sometimes make impulse buying decisions.

Apparently, unbeknownst to him, she has these same habits and is afraid to just be honest with him about it for fear of rejection.

It’s hard to really be your true, whole self with someone you are just starting to care about. The early stages are so rocky—make one false move and it’s still easy for one to run away unscathed. There’s that fear that showing them your true self and becoming vulnerable will backfire and you’ll get hurt. I know I’m guilty of this.

Heck, men can’t even get me to the exclusive four month pivotal point because I either make them jump through so many hoops in an attempt to prove to myself that they’re not right for me, or I tell myself lies and make up fake dramas surrounding them and our relationship, become disappointed and deliberately pull away.

I don’t really do it with intention to harm them or act maliciously, but I just kind of make myself disappear until they force me to crack and open up just a little more for them. I’m a wreck. But aren’t we all?

Just a little?

I love the holidays. I’m a giver more than a receiver so I like to find the *perfect* gift. Have you read Holiday Gift Giving I and II? Read on for more ideas to share with your significant other this season…

If you happen to be or know someone who is crafty, there’s myriad of options for giving the greatest gift. In recent years, my mom’s favorite new hobby was knitting. Know a knit-wit? Consider knitting, crocheting or buying a homemade scarf or hat to give to your loved one.

Grandma loves to make denim quilts – which, by the way are amazing—they are so heavy and cozy! These are absolutely perfect for cuddling up by the fireplace on subzero nights in the cabin or during those freezing Minnesotan (or heck, all of the Midwest) months.

If you work well with wood either as a hobbyist or professional, consider making a plaque or display case. My dad has his own woodworking shop. It came in handy a few years ago when I was in a serious relationship and my boyfriend at the time was really into his guitar. I bought an eight inch replica and pleaded with Daddy to make a cube display case for the guitar to sit in. The beau loved it.

Hobby shops such as Hobby Lobby in the Midwest or Michael’s craft supply store make it pretty simple to come up with an idea and often have a good selection of “do it yourself� kits for making your own stained glass, jewelry and scrapbooks just to name a few.

Whatever you set your sights on, go into it with the right frame of mind and put your heart into it. Whoever is the recipient will surely know you thought long and hard into giving them a keepsake.

I love the holidays. I’m a giver more than a receiver so I like to find the *perfect* gift. Have you read Holiday Gift Giving I? Read on for more ideas to share with your significant other this season…

CD compilations are good if you’re familiar with your sweetie’s favorite genre—mixing in a few new indie and underground songs is always fun for me because I feel like I’m allowing the other person into my secret music club of awesomeness.

You don’t have to over-think it like I do. In fact, if you celebrate Christmas, I’d recommend including “Step into Christmas� by Elton John, Frank Loesser’s “Baby it’s Cold Outside,� or Brenda Lee’s “Rockin’ Around the Christmas Tree.� And I’m not Jewish, but I’ll admit, around the holidays I can’t get enough of Adam Sandler’s “Hanukkah� song.

Or! Do you play your own instrument? I had a boyfriend once who recorded himself playing a song he’d written to me. Romantic, right? If you’re a guy wanting to impress the girl in your life, this is a surefire way to get noticed and let her know you’re definitely into her.

DISCLAIMER: However, if you’re not exclusive or “official� yet, maybe wait to give a gift like this until after those boundaries have been set.

Nothing is worse than jumping the gun and scaring the other person off. If you think this would be a possibility, wait until Valentine’s day, her birthday, or a set “more official� anniversary date.

If you have been dating each other for awhile and know in fact that she is into you as much as you are into her and she enjoys gifts from the heart, you can’t go wrong. She will appreciate the thought, time and effort you took into doing something just for her. She will cherish it…and she’ll cherish you.

Do you have someone special in your life this holiday season? I do not. Well, not really. But for those of you who do and are finding yourself amid the struggle between finding something that person will really like and something that is sentimental and from the heart, here are a few ideas that have worked for me in the past…

I am a sucker for homemade gifts—I adore everything homemade—especially food. Every year, one of our family friends brings around a basket of fudge, muffins and sugar cookies every year. It’s one of the things I look forward to during the holidays.

Last year was the first year I spent away from home so I was unable to enjoy her basket of yummy goodness and I regretted it a little. This year, I’m making up for it and plan on stuffing myself.

This year I’m putting together goody baskets including almond bark dipped pretzels and holiday brownies. Don’t forget drinks! Homemade apple cider and hot cocoa will be sure to warm your honey’s heart *wink* Or! Try having eggnog on ice with a little bit of Captain Morgan—perfect for winding down by the fire. Oh, and don’t try roasting any chestnuts—especially if it’s early in the relationship.

Haha—I have been there, done that. Just an FYI – They stink up the house and aren’t very tasty. However, I guess it could be a good test of the other person’s patience, willingness to try new things and their sense of humor when things go awry… something to think about I suppose.

Alright. I dislike misogynists—and that includes those in “recovery�—if there is such a thing. I guess man-haters are just as bad. Altogether, they are not very happy people. When I was out with a guy recently, he confessed to me that he’d been a misogynist at one time. He explained it was because he had been living in California since high school and said that all the women he encountered had grown up being used to being fed by a silver spoon.

I’m not really sure what he meant exactly—if it was just his assumption that all attractive women must be stuck up snobs and therefore he was fully justified in over-generalizing half of the human race – er, correction – make that just the “attractive-according-to-him� women as being worthless.

I don’t know. What I do know is that for “no longer being a misogynist,� he really liked to “correct� me. Although, unbeknownst to him, most of his “corrections� were just him not understanding my dry, sarcastic, often facetious and sometimes callous humor. Not only did I imagine myself getting increasingly irritated with him, I wonder to myself what other women without patience think. What would other people in my position – right then and there- do?

I feel a little sad for him. I would hate living life waiting for my next opportunity to tell someone that they are wrong and therefore suck at life—okay, maybe not that far. But he’d use it as a segue into how knowledgeable and philosophical and successful he was… more than a little exhausting to listen to let alone try to uphold the light end of a very weighted conversation.

Hm. Not my favorite way to date, methinks.

So I ended it with A. The night after our date actually. I couldn’t bring myself to see him face to face again – especially after the shared humiliation of the would-be car wreck. And he’s pretty chatty and awkward on the phone, so I emailed him.

I have to admit, I think I’m a bit much to take. I pity any guy who even attempts to date me—I wouldn’t have the energy to put up with my crap if I were someone I wasn’t really all that into. I’m pretty brutal—and with that, brutally honest.

I thought I was straight with him, but I don’t think he believed me when I had told him the night before that I really do in fact enjoy being single….and now, after the fact as I’m thinking about it, alive. I like living and being mobile and not being rammed into trees or having the fear of being rammed into a tree. I mean, if a little nervousness causes tree-ramming, what does an argument six months into a real relationship perpetuate?

So, taken from the advice of a (male) friend, I just came out with it. “Be blunt about it. I, like other guys, don’t take subtle hints.� Hah. Okay then. Here goes nothin’.

“Hi A. Thanks again for last night. Dinner was nice. Like I said, I think you’re a great guy. However, despite how I may feel about you as a person, my feelings for you are completely platonic. That’s why I pulled away when you kissed me. I’m sorry, I just don’t think I feel the same way you do. I know you have a lot coming up with graduation. I wish you the best of luck.�

Too harsh? I don’t know.